You Found Me

by Stephan Ainley

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This CD has been many years in the making. It represents my journey over the past five years as I've searched for myself, a wife, and God. HINDSIGHT and GROWING OLD were written by a broken hearted boy sick of dead end relationships praying that God would let the next girl be the one. YOU FOUND ME was written in faith as I prepared myself for whatever girl God had planned for my life. It wasn’t until I got engaged that I realized how true this song was. NOT BY CHANCE and CORRIE CORRIE were written to the woman I married and we recently celebrated our one year anniversary.

At the same time, God was near but I would still keep him at arm’s length. IN A YEAR, I'D RATHER YOU BE AN ENEMY, and I FIND IT EASIER were written when I wasn't sure about my future and knew that the way I was living could not last. I LET GO and FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU AGAIN was the shift my life needed to give God everything. It was amazing how that one act started the chain reaction that let Him turn everything around in my life. The last song, LOOK HOW FAR I'VE GONE, was written by a man who is finally happy with the direction his life is going and acceptance with the decisions he has made.

Thank you God for all your patience during these past few years and for all you’ve done in my life. Thanks to my family and friends for all their support and love. Lastly, thank you to my wife who has been with me the shortest amount of time but has changed my life in so many ways. I love you so mucha!

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released July 24, 2012

All instruments and vocals by Stephan Ainley
Recorded with much help from Brian Russel, Willocraft Media
Mixed and mastered by Tommy Bozung, Audiochocolate Studio

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Track Name: Intro
As long as you're with me
There's nothing I can't be
As long as I'm with you
There's nothing I can't do
Track Name: Hindsight
Every so often I think about you
And the times we spent and the fun had as one
And if only I knew then what I know now
There are lots of things I think I'd rather have done
And It's not like I avoid your messages
I'm just trying hard to forget you ever existed

If I knew you were gonna leave me
I would have grown my hair out
If I knew you weren't gonna hold me
I would have taken my hand back
If I knew you weren't gonna kiss me
I would have dreamt another dream

Someday I'll ask if you regret
The things you said and the things you'd done to me
And I wonder if I said some things I shouldn't
Cause you're leaving didn't come too gracefully
And it's not that I dislike saying your name
I'd just rather not remember all I lost

If I knew you weren't gonna call me
I would have turned my phone off
If I knew you weren't coming over
I would have gone out fishing
If I knew you weren't gonna love me
I would have saved mine for someone else

The time has come to trust another
Take a chance that it will be better than the last
And if things go right she'll turn into the mother
Of our kids and we can go start our own past
And I'll try to not compare you to what's-her-face
But if her name slips it shows she's never really left

If I knew you were gonna leave me
I wouldn't have even bothered
If I knew you weren't gonna love me
I wouldn't have given mine so quickly
If I knew you weren't gonna marry me
I would have gotten out long ago
Track Name: In a Year
First situation I'm right where you want me to be
If that's the case why am I not really happy
Am I not seeing something
Or am I looking for something that's not there

Teach me to be patient when things aren't going my way
Steady my feet when things get tough and I need to stay
I need to trust you a lot more
I need to trust that you're looking out for me

And the question that I fear

Where do I go from here
Where do you see me in a year
Am I better off than now
And if so then how
Do I get there from here

Take two I'm somewhere where I'm not supposed to be right now
You've tried to move me but I'm not really sure how
I wish your voice was clearer
I wish your voice wasn't drowned out by the noise

Show me the things in my life that separate us
The things I cling to that do get between us
Help me to let all those things go
Help me to walk next to you yet again

And the question of the year

Where do I go from here
Where do you see me in a year
Am I better off than now
And if so then how
Do I get there from here

Where do I go from here
Where do you see me in a year
Do I need to make a stand
Or find a better plan
For this to be my year
Track Name: I'd Rather You Be an Enemy [Revelation 3:16]
We’ve been through a lot together
We’ve helped each other out
But there are times you disappoint me
It makes me start to doubt
Where your loyalties lie and
Where you’d rather be then here

You’ve come and gone a lot
With no pattern to see
It makes you hard to rely on
Or give responsibility
Given the choice between this and
Where we used to be…I think

I’d rather you go away from me
So I could finally know where we disagree
If I had to choose from what I see
I’d rather you be an enemy

That’s not to say that I don’t want
You around me anymore
I’d just rather the consistency
If you’d walk out of the door
I’ll be here if you need me
And decide to change your mind

I’d rather you go away from me
So I could finally know where we disagree
If I had to choose from what I see
I’d rather you be an enemy
Track Name: I Find it Easier
Someday I'm gonna make you smile
I'm gonna make you proud to know me
One day when the world is older
I'm gonna need a shoulder is that okay?

Until then I'm gonna keep on walking
I'm gonna keep on trying by myself

I find it easier to pretend to love you than to actually
But when times get tough you can expect me coming
And you better be there waiting for me

Apologies don't mean that much to me
At least that's how it seems after so many
And I'll swear it's the last time
Though I swore that the last time
And I'll swear that the next time probably

Until then I'm gonna keep on walking
Until then I'm not even gonna try

I find it easier to pretend to love you than to actually
But when times get tough you can expect me coming
And you better be there waiting for me
Track Name: Growing Old
I'll admit that there are days
I'm the rat running through the maze
Looking for you dear, waiting for a sign
Hoping life doesn't leave me behind

Yet still I try
Playing all these games
The trail goes cold
And I'm growing old

There are days when I'll admit
That I don't see the point of it
You could be near or maybe not
I'm not looking to where I ought

Yet still I try
Playing all these games
And like a cold
They're growing old

At times I'm not sure what exactly I'm waiting for
But It'd be stupid not wait and just ignore
You're plan for me

I'll admit that there are times
With just a word you could be mine
But to what end? Maybe for the day
Oh I'm wishing my life away

Yet still I try
I'm not sure what to say
About ready to fold
Still growing old
Track Name: I Let Go
It could have been my secret
From everyone but you
I could have done my own thing
Done everything far from you

I could have gone on pretending
That everything was fine
That I knew what I wanted
And I could make it fall in line

The moment I let go I gave You everything
The moment I let go I gained Your heart
The moment I let go things started going right
Cause You turned my world apart

I thought that I was happy
But I wouldn't believe the lie
I wanted a new beginning
I prayed for you El Shaddai

I tried to do it my way
That wasn't working out as planned
You became my savior
The moment I raised my hand

The moment I let go I gave You everything
The moment I let go I gained Your heart
The moment I let go things started going right
Cause You turned my world apart
Track Name: Fall in Love With You Again
It's the cold I get when You are not around
It's the fire in my soul when You surround
Your forgiving love it brings me back
I turn to You when things go black
Just like I have always done

So I'm thinking

What must I do to fall in love with You again?
I'm finally sick of being just a friend
I need change to come and You know exactly where to mend
For I to fall in love with You again

It's Your patience that has kept me in surprise
It's Your determination and tender loving eyes
I'm ashamed to say if I were You
And asked to do the things You do
It wouldn't have been good for me

So I'm asking

What must I do to fall in love with You again?
I'm finally sick of being just a friend
I need change to come and You know exactly where to mend
For I to fall in love with You again

It's the way you dance and way you make me sing
It's the way you care about the smaller things
And I love how You have hung in there
Through all the times I need repair
You knew exactly what to do

So to thank You

What must I do to fall in love with You again?
I'm finally sick of being just a friend
I need change to come and You know exactly where to mend
For I to fall in love with You again
Track Name: You Found Me
I never thought I'd be with a girl who was like you
Those things you do and things you can't boggle the mind
I surprise myself falling deeper into love with you
And I wonder what my life would be like if I got exactly what I wanted in a girl
I know that you would never have been inside my world

And I'm so glad you found me
And I'm so glad you found me
And I'm so glad you found me
Cause I wasn't looking for you

She considers sleeping in to be five or six
She'd rather read than to watch our favorite TV show
And she couldn't sing a song in key to save her life
Who thought what I'd wanted was not at all what I needed nor what was planned for for me
I'm glad there's someone always watching over me

And I'm so glad you found me
And I'm so glad you found me
And I'm so glad you found me
Cause I wasn't looking for you
Track Name: Not By Chance
I have been waiting a long time
For you to come into my life
And I found that of late
You were so worth the wait

You have been waiting much longer
Than my three years and that makes you stronger
Which I’ve known all along
This is where I belong

It’s not by chance that these hands I’m holding belong to you
And all the luck in the world couldn’t do what we do
There were no stars that aligned that turned this into
The story of our lives with me and you

I’d said I trusted in God’s plan
To bring you to me but now I understand
What He planned from the start
Was for Him to impart

It’s not by chance that these hands I’m holding belong to you
And all the luck in the world couldn’t do what we do
There were no stars that aligned that turned this into
The story of our lives with me and you

Now that I have you I know what He means
When He says He only wants the best for me

It’s not by chance that these hands I’m holding belong to you
And all the luck in the world couldn’t do what we do
There were no stars that aligned that turned this into
The story of our lives staring me and you
Track Name: Corrie Corrie
If you told me a year ago
That I’d be in love with this girl I know
I would’ve said you’re mad
Wasn’t the plan I had

Not that I was against the thought
I just wasn’t looking to where I ought
It was a matter of timing
Of divine designing

I found I was waiting
But for whom I don’t know
Now that I know the answer
There’s still a long way to go

So many questions, with so little time
Just a couple things that were on my mind
Corrie Corrie would you agree
That you waiting for me?

You claim that you don’t sing
It’s not exactly your kind of thing
But I think you’re wrong
You have a great heart song

I’ve heard every single note
And every song that I have wrote
I’ve seen a thousand times
Inside your shining eyes

Now I have this emotion
Only described one way
And when I say, “I love you”
I don’t mean just for the day

So many questions, with so little time
Just a couple things that were on my mind
Corrie Corrie could I ask of you
Do you love me too?

It’s like we were made for each other
You and I need one another

Most of the questions, just a waste of time
Just one last thing that was on my mind
Corrie Corrie asked for all to see
Will you marry me?
Track Name: Look How Far I've Gone
I think about all the things I have and haven’t done
The things I could’ve changed and wars I wish I would have won
And I think look how far I’ve gone

There are things that I have said and I can never take them back
Many things I didn’t do while using time as an excuse
Still I think look how far I’ve gone

And I think look how far
And I think look how far
Still I think look how far I've gone